Events have transpired and continue to reveal themselves, I question how much more time do I have?
Changes are happening, do they foretell my doom, or my liberation?
I foresee it could be both. The demise of one life, to be reborn into another.
If it is to be that a transition is to befall me, I leave this document as my last will and testament for this life as it is at this moment.
Let all that I have be bequeathed to the beautiful women that I know in this life as my wife.
Even though I have always been hers, she has never truly been mine, but alas, she is my Valkyrie, my Passion, and my Life. So, let her do with what is left behind as she should see fit.
Others have always held her affections far more effectively than I, and though my new life would have a place for her, I have little faith that she would choose to accompany me on that journey.
If what is to come is as I expect it will be, I will have no use for any of the things that I once knew as my own.
My course is uncertain, but not unexpected. The future is not set, and what will come may take a different road, but one can never know.
Might I continue on this path or is it a new path that I will be forced to navigate?
I’ve done well on this path. I’ve accomplished many goals, gathered great troves of knowledge, and grown mentally, and emotionally, far beyond my expectations.
But nothing last’s forever, the past is never gone, and what I am now is also a part of what I used to be.
Time has given me obstacles to which I have been able to overcome and endure.
And still there is a part of me that remains that has been carried within. A testament to the character I once was. A fire deep inside that still retains a flame.
Is the time approaching that it will be required to once again let loose that which was caged so long ago?
Will events to come open the shackles that restrained the fire within?
After all the years trapped within this world that I have grown to appreciate, enjoy, and nurture, has it come to a point where my journey will change in direction?
Has the time come for all of the success I have achieved in this life, to fracture, dissolve, and fade into obscurity?
And if so. Is it a bad thing? Should I fear it? Should I appose it? Should I cling to what is and use all that I have become to continue to encourage the travel on this road?
Or, could this be an opportunity to embrace what I once was, what I could have been, and what I originally wanted to be?
The next few months will decide. The events to transpire will light the way for the direction I will follow. There are two roads.
Will my future continue down this path that I have already endured. Will I continue this path of progress and accomplishment?
Or will a new path be revealed. A fond memory from a distant past. A path that I am equally able to forge with zeal.
Both are known to me, and I will find happiness along either.
I see the conflict, the pleasure, and the pain of both roads. I cannot choose, and so I will let fate decide.
Time will tell. The events are close at hand that will decide my future.
Of my two roads, will fate choose to allow me to continue along this road, passivized but proud, caged but content, and shackled but secure.
Or has the time come when fate decides that I am no longer to be passive, caged, or shackled. That the desire to be proud, content, and secure is of no further need.
Could it be that the primal nature of what I once was will again be called forth?
After all. Once you have taken everything from a man, you simply leave him with nothing to loose.
Which will it be?
Is it time to invigorate my dedication to what I have become?
Or has the time come that fate will decide to unleash the Beast!