I understand your dilemma.
It isn’t easy to recognize the part of yourself that is capable of inflicting pain or death on another.
But let me assure you, the horrible trauma that you are overcome with after taking a life is NOTHING compared to the eternal shame, suffering, and unrecoverable torment that you must endure when you are NOT willing too.
I would rather suffer the pain of taking an evil persons life than endure the extreme guilt of watching one of my family die at the hands of an evil criminal, and knowing I didn’t have the heart, the courage, or the ability, to save them.
That is a pain I would NEVER wish on anyone.
So when it comes down to them or me. I choose me.
It was NOT me that decided to terrorize some ones solitude. It was NOT me who decided to violate some ones rights. And it was not me who decided to extinguish the light of another human being.
They made that choice.
I have chosen to protect myself, my family, and others, from their choice to inflict their evil upon those that are helpless.
I hope that you will also choose to not be helpless. I hope that you will also choose the life of your family, yourself, and the innocent, over the life of those whom have chosen to inflict evil on others.
It is not you who choose to take their life. They chose their actions that forced you to do so.
I have looked into the face of evil, and I have chosen to stand against it.
I can only hope that you will choose to do the same.